To be a good mother was my greatest desire 20 years ago. From the first moments of knowing that I was going to be a mum, I wanted only the best for my daughter. I had no idea how I was going to do it but I knew that I would not settle for anything less than being a good mum. I would not let her suffer or go through what I went through in my childhood. It didn't take me long to realize that being a mum was the most difficult job I have ever done.
Then my son came along after five years. I have worked hard at being the best mum that I can be...to love my children...to teach them how to love and be grateful…to trust and love God above all. The painful part is in spite of how much I love them, I have also let them down.
Being a mum has made me appreciate my own mother. I realize all the heartaches and love that went into raising me and that she did the best that she knew how to do at that time and era. Yes, she has let me down and failed at times. I wasn’t the most loved child, in fact I received no love from her in my early years. Learning from her mistakes, all I want is to love and protect my children at all cost; provide and give them the best within my means and ability. But no, I have not been the perfect mother and yes, I have failed my children.
I strive to be a good mother but motherhood is not easy at all. Despite loving them unconditionally, I failed to understand simply how to be a good mother... not to mention the best. I do not know how to love them the way they want, how to protect them, how to emphasize and feel their pain in a very personal way. I have done many things in my life perfectly but I as a mum, I have failed. Is there such a thing as a perfect mother?
2 comments:
no one can be the perfect mother. no one can be perfect or most right. the best is just to have the most perfect imperfect mother.
love you always.
there is no such thing as a perfect mother, father, daughter or son. Infact, a perfect human being don't even exist!!!!
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