Friday, October 24, 2008

Letting go

Letting go and letting God…we hear it all the time, but only a few of us really live our lives this way and the truth is that it’s easier said than done. Is it so simple to let go of the uncontrollable and unchangeable in life? Surely I am not responsible to affect a change or correct a problem which is beyond my competency, power and authority. That’s an obvious fact. Of course, I can start being rational about what I can and cannot do, be realistic and accepting my powerlessness…. but a mother’s pain doesn’t heal and never fade away. It hurts and some days more badly.

When I was young, often time I sat and wondered how and why my mother always sit and ponder. Eyes and stare so far as if she has the whole world to bear. Her struggles, she endures. Hiding her pain and acting strong. Finally, now I understand…. my children’s hurt can turn my life painfully upside down. A sword has pierced my heart, the bleeding never stop. What else can I do but to pray for God’s grace to let me walk in faith. Having seen God’s faithfulness over and over, I will enter God’s rest and place my trust in Him.

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